Just when I feel like I arrived, like I've finally got it together, God has a way of putting me in my place.
About a year ago, one of my facebook friends, Anna posted a status that said something like, "I feel like life is on pause." Immediately, my heart went out to her because I have known that feeling.
For four years we have waited and prayed for a church for Shad to pastor, and I THOUGHT that was exactly what Anna was experiencing as Anna's husband wanted to be a pastor.
Reaching out, I sent a nice e-mail to encourage Anna, and I was feeling like an all around good person, but soon my pettiness showed.
Just a few short weeks later, Anna posted that her husband was now the pastor of a church. When I read that status, I, being the mature adult that I am said...
Are you kidding me!!!
While I was excited for them, it just didn't seem fair that God made things so easy for some and so hard for us. Rather than being encouraged by God blessing someone, I pouted like Brandon does when he doesn't get what he wants.
Did God know what we were going through?
Did God care about us too?
Eventually, I worked through my feelings, I remembered God has a plan for my family, and I soon forgot about the entire ordeal.
Last week, Anna had started her own blog, and I read everything that was going on in her life when life was "on pause." You can read the post by clicking here.
After reading her blog, and seeing her full story, I was reminded of the pity party I threw for myself last year. Just when I feel like I have arrived, I see myself for what I really am, a little girl throwing a tantrum because God doesn't work on my schedule, and I am reminded once again of how much I need God.
Ironically, the day before I read her blog, I told Shad, "I really try to give someone the benefit of the doubt. Teaching has shown me you never know someones full story." Yep, I ate those words, but it was a good lesson, and one I hope not to forget.